Hey all, decided to post something thats been on my mind. not sure if this is where it belongs im sure someone might move it if this post isn't suppose to be here.

(I would like both christians and atheist to post what ever on here)

as one who is a believer in a God namely Christ - I have my doubts about whether or not I am doing something right or wrong. if I do one thing it seems as if I cause one group to be angered but if I do another the other group gets upset. honestly right now im dealing with part of the church calling me a idolizer rather than helping me out who supposely is "idolizing" they call me out and then they then leave me expecting me to find food on my own.

But, I think part of the reason why the jews didn't recognize Jesus for who he was is because they thought that he would come and be someone who enforces the law with power. though he does in the bible but not like what the pharisees thought.

I currently am finding out that (no matter if your a believer or not) anyone has the problem of breaking the law. I was pondering this: what if I some how became perfect on the out side that doesn't mean that the person in the inside is the same (dealing with my thoughts or feelings). recently been reading the bible(of course since im dealing with doubt, which I am fearful of doing since I don't want to miss read something out of contexts) I think God wants honesty rather than you being religious and everything else falls into place. you cant become a person unless your honest with yourself about being another person.

even in our human relationships it applies- wouldnt want a friend lieing to you unless that friend was doing it because he was trying to encourage you to keep trying but even still I think there is a way where you can encourage someone to keep tyring without the lie.  a relationship consist of two people working together (not trying to tell you how relationshps are suppose to be run) and if one isn't honest then the other isn't able to help. so yeah I think rewards come with honesty and that I see in some ways that atheist are doing - you guys arn't lieing about having doubt(if im using it in the right contexts) (hope im not flattering here. but its something I personally believe)

looking at it the harshes words Jesus ever said was towards the religious pharisees and not towards the sick. I believe its because the pharissess were the ones that were using that mask trying to be people that they weren't. instead of being honest and letting Jesus do what he said he would do which is change someones life(when it is time to change I think He changes someone) they were changing themselves into people who only changed there outside appearance and only looked at the law instead. I hope I havn't claimed the im perfect card just yet cause I am far from being that perfect.

but yeah. I think I said everything thats been on my mind and that I think needed to be said.

idk would like to know what you guys think personally.