People have a hard time understanding what I am saying. Perhaps it has to do with me being four steps ahead of them in a conversation, perhaps it has to do with them not being able to understand anything I say. Either way, communication is broken... at the least for me.

I can't have a conversation with anybody because they think I am not addressing what they are saying when I obviously am; they simply have problems with inferences. It's as if I, very literally, have to spell things out for them. Even after establishing something in a conversation, such as new religions not spreading in theocratical countries, they still have a hard time understand things.

I'll give you an example.

My father and I were talking about religion. He asked me a pretty good question. "What is it about Christianity that made it spread incredibly fast through Europe?" Well, I asked him about why it didn't spread through other places, such as India and China, and his response was that he did not know.

So I suggested that it mainly had to do with the society of the places. For example, China and India have rich histories with their respective religions, both of them doing extremely well with it. In contrast, the reason the Vikings gods wore out was simply because the Vikings did not have a society they liked, or to be more exact, they did not have a strong government.

This, somehow, was not sufficient. He asked again. "So what is it about Christianity that made it spread incredibly fast through Europe?"

I repeated.

He repeated.

I repeated.

Eventually, I said "Look. It's got to deal with how much religion played in the society. More theocratical societies did not take kindly to new religions, while others, such as the ones had by the Vikings, were more open to it." Although, full knowing, that both pagans and Christians lived side by side in Hedeby (I think it was Hedeby... the place near Hagia Sophia) for a long time before pagans were eventually cast out and killed.

I mean, is it that hard to understand that there is nothing special about it and that I have already assumed this and am adressing the very next question that would be asked? Is it really that hard?

He's also been caught up in this whole comfort thing that goes along with it and I told him that it simply wasn't the case. He kept on insisting that we both found comfort in our atheism, although again, this is not the case.

Maybe it's me, but when I have a fucking conversation, I like to use real definitions for words. I use strong, easily understood words with no grey area, especially as the important part of a question, answer, or statement. Perhaps it is this that causes many conversations that I have to turn into arguments, although both sides might agree. It's, very literally, to the point where I do not speak anymore. I literally do not utter anything to anyone anymore simply because they do not understand a thing I am saying.

If I'm ever at a loss for words, it's not because I don't have a response or a statement, it's because I'm trying to find a way to word it so the person listening will understand. I can't mentally babysit everybody I talk to, especially since it becomes tiresome and boring to have to walk somebody step by step through a very simple to understand process.

This also isn't something that is strictly left to intellectual conversations either. Even when I'm telling somebody why he should stand in a certain spot while playing defense in a game, I'm often wasting 30 minutes to an hour explaining just one of the reasons why.

"Why not stand here with this class?"

Because no one runs there. Stand here with this class .

"Why?"

More people run in through this area and this class is the best for handling a situation like this.

"But this place is better."

Why?

"I dunno"

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