Without being a smartass, check out the many reference points on this board, Google and pan for gold there and also hit the library and read the many Atheist books out there.

I hope it all becomes clear for you soon.

Here are the books l'd suggest:

god is not great - Christopher Hitchens
The god Delusion - Richard Dawkins
Sense and Goodness without god - Richard Carrier
The Quantum Brain - Jeffrey Satinover

 

Oh and head over to www.patcondell.com, he's always got a good point to make

Hello Matt, welcome to the forums.

If you are looking for information on biblical errancy, you would do yourself a favor and pick up a couple of books by Bart Erhman. I would specifically recommend “Jesus Interrupted”, “Lost Christianities” and “Lost Scriptures”.

Seriously, if the bible is the inerrant word of god, don't you think that he would want it to be correct and unvarying? Hells bells but the earliest bibles such as the Codex Sinaiticus don't even contain the same list of books.

As far as accuracy of biblical history, take a step back from any source of biblical archeology and check regular archeology. If anything in the bible is true, then there should be confirmation of the same events outside of the bible. Seriously, the history of the ancient world is fairly well known, at least as far as the major events are concerned.

Did the events of the Exodus actually happen? Well, the Egyptians were meticulous record keepers. Don't you think that there would be some mention of the vast tracts of farm land needed to feed several tens of thousands of slaves over a period of several centuries?

Add to that that Egypt was one of the major military powers of the region and only their army kept rival civilizations from overrunning them. If they lost the whole army overnight, would not those rival civilizations have acted on that fact?

Another point is that Cairo is only about 300 miles from Jerusalem. Assuming that moving all those people through the desert is roughly comparable to moving an army, that trip ought not to have taken more than a month or so.

As far as the biblical flood is concerned, where did all the water come from and where did it go? Seriously, we know how much water there is in the oceans and ice caps. Just how did enough water to cover the earth to a depth of a mile or more escape the notice of geologists?

Was Jesus a real person and what can we know about him? Well, to be honest, I am not a huge fan of the whole Jesus myth school of thought. It seeks to establish a proposition based on there not being any reliable evidence, which to my way of thinking doesn't really go anywhere useful.

That being said, there certainly is a huge hole in the historical writings of the period as far as Jesus in history. He certainly seems to have escaped the notice of the major historians of the first century. Also, whoever wrote the book of acts seems to be unaware that there were gospels, which strongly suggests that they either did not exist (even as verbal histories) at the time or that they were not considered to be important works. Mind you, of course, that we already know that they were in fact written later but even so if there was any substance to early Christian writings, the whole set of works should have existed at the same time and been cross referenced.

There is no proof of anything ever existing at all. :/ So I'm not going to offer you any nifty book titles or whatnot.  My advise: just do whatever makes you happy.  I mean, all that exists "for sure" to an individual is their consciousness, right? So work from where you're at, find whatever truth is acceptable to you, and trudge on until this crazy train ends (if it does, who knows?).

Welcome!
Unfortunately, with your qualifier, there is no source to disprove a god. Every religion defines god just a bit differently, and only after a definition has been presented can it be verified or discarded. However, the sources mentioned so far are an excellent start on hearing our side of the argument. I hope they help you, whichever direction you eventually choose.