Alright, you guys win. Rationality wins the day (finally?!)... right alongside with atonement.
...and my mania wears down easily on a lower dose of a particular medicine. So while I'm still introspective and level-headed...
(note: a good bit of lewdness follows all of this at the bottom. Down there, I will describe my dream woman just for the sake of my own ego. I've got strange tastes in what I consider 'hotness', in case you haven't noticed yet, but I come by it honestly)
... this is considered stalking... just a little fyi
It was not my intent to 'stalk' you, or even frighten you. But I've got enough wits to know how to read writing on the wall, and right now those wits say "Fucking leave this girl alone already! Are you so damn stupid you don't even know when to give up?"
So you win. I give up...
(and I apologize)
I agree. Kapkao, cut it out. Not nice. I don't know how doomed is feeling, but I am totally uncomfortable with this.
I swear, I don't (intentionally) make myself out to be a complete ass... it just happens anyways. In my defense... I'm still trying to figure out (along with my Dr's) what (psychoactive) medicines work in what doses... but I still take responsibility for my ill behaviors, nevertheless.
I didn't say that you would rape her. A rape whistle can be used to thwart many kinds of assaults. But seriously, I'm not even suggesting that you shouldn't follow people for the purpose of surveillance or confront them in inappropriate ways or send them unwanted messages. I'm saying that even if you're doing it for non-silence-of-the-lambs type reasons they'll still think that you're going to chop their feet off and put them in your refrigerator.
I know you probably won't take advice from me because I'm just anonymous random person (unless you figured out who we all are through deductive reasoning) but in my opinion you should just fuck some girls in your local community and not fixate so much on this kind of average looking girl who thinks you're stalking her now.
If there were a reason I wouldn't take advice from someone, it would be because my head isn't screwed on straight. (and it hasn't been for a few weeks)
Jesus Christ Kap, if you bug her enough you know you'll be banned, right?
It wasn't my intent to bug anyone, initially, and no, I didn't know that. 
In the world of Kapkao...
You just fapped at Doomy
Hot damn Gauche, i never knew you had feeling for me!
Cut that out before I misinterpret your behavior as trying to sexually tease/humiliate me. 
(note:harmless sarcasm)
Are you off of your meds or something?
Faulty premise: it was being on my meds at their previous doses that was the problem. 20mg Paxil+ 300mg welbutrin + mania= BOOM | 10mg paxil + 300mg welbutrin + manic state=good ol' rational, level-headed me.
so why bother answering? jesus christ, if you're so persecuted and/or exasperated here, go the fuck somewhere else.
You misunderstand me. I didn't have my head on straight yesterday; now I do, hopefully for a long-ass time. Now... let bygones be bygones. Peace?
Look, first of all the only feeling I'll ever have for Doom is the desire to vomit out of my butthole. Second, I'm not trying to counsel you or anything but you're going about this completely the wrong way. No woman is going to sleep with you with that attitude. People who worship women do it from afar and they always will.
Look at it this way, Main Gauche... I *WILL* find my vicious femdom goddess one day! 
(and my life will be so fulfilled with happiness and joy when I do!)
Kapkao wrote:So there's no female out there who is sexually aggressive/sexually dominating out there?Yeah, they're called lesbians.
I'm a guy; I have (rutting) instincts... and I can't sniff out homosexuality in a Gay Canadian "(ex) Canadian Forces, Army, Urban Combat Specialist" Gal from 2000 miles away, over fiber optics...
... and I have a weird tendency to interpret aggressive behavior on account of females reacting to my presence as flirting with me.
I'll even share a lil secret with whoever reads this: I went out with "the crazy hoes" late in high school just for this reason. I was lucky to make it past third base for the first so many attempts, but thankfully I made a few home runs...
...
Then I asked them to beat up on me and treat me like they would treat a bitter enemy...
Let's just say things almost ALWAYS go downhill rapidly from that point. 
One girl actually called the cops on me in a sudden hysteria because she thought being an extreme sexual masochist made me a psycho or a nutjob or wtfever. Yeah... that burned me out like you wouldn't believe.
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My point being... If I'm going to have a meaningful relationship with a woman... she's going to have to get violent from time to time; put me in my place regularly... if you know what I mean. That's the only thing that will do the trick for me (some days)! (being forceful and dominating helps in this area, too. I deserve to be punished sometimes, yes? 
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Go rent a really nice house in San Fernando Valley for a week, get some video equipment, invite her over, give her money and fuck her till her eyes spin around like a damn slot machine. Then send me a free copy because I gave you the idea.
San Fernando... about as far outside my wallet as it gets. (travel expenses and what-have-you)
Ok, since I'm going all the way to san fernando, she's going to have to show a willingness to pummel me into goo, must be somewhat cute, a little well-fed, be all-natural in physique (NO silicon, pls), have a white hot VORACIOUS sexual appetite, and a demeanor that could almost tear apart entire worlds with it's aggressive, bullying, and self-serving nature. Nothing else will work as far as I'm concerned. (Don't ask me to explain why! I'm just weird when it comes to 'dream dates'... and dammit, I want to be punished! )
(What can I say folks... I've got bad wiring when it comes to what I think is 'desirable' women, but on everything else I'm straight-laced. Or so I hope.)
Now... everyone, allow to feel like a dolt for (obsessively) seeking a gay chick from Canada for companionship.
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NOTE TO SELF: no more posting to RRS drunk. NO MORE!
(i tend to be a little too honest sometimes)
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I know. I was not trying to beat up on you. I know how hard it can be to figure out meds and I don't have any problems anything like yours. You have my support, but if I think you are over the top, I will let you know, okay?
Oh, and I am sure your doc told you no booze or other meds you haven't told him about while on psychotropic drugs. That is a piece of advice I think you may want to seriously consider. I know, it takes all the fun away.......
-- I feel so much better since I stopped trying to believe.
"We are entitled to our own opinions. We're not entitled to our own facts"- Al Franken
"If death isn't sweet oblivion, I will be severely disappointed" - Ruth M.
cj wrote:Replying just to
Believe me, that's not a problem. Sometimes I need a good slap in the head too, if you feel like it.
Socrates, paraphrased: I drank WHAT?
The grape juice I rely on to keep my blood sugar normal appears to have fermented. I'm not much of a habitual drinker, anyways. (and I wonder if that's a problem sometimes.)
“A meritocratic society is one in which inequalities of wealth and social position solely reflect the unequal distribution of merit or skills amongst human beings, or are based upon factors beyond human control, for example luck or chance. Such a society is socially just because individuals are judged not by their gender, the colour of their skin or their religion, but according to their talents and willingness to work, or on what Martin Luther King called 'the content of their character'. By extension, social equality is unjust because it treats unequal individuals equally.” "Political Ideologies" by Andrew Heywood (2003)
Kapkao wrote:Socrates,
That has to be one for the records - naturally fermented grape juice is yucky.
My husband has type 2 - he says it isn't fair, he isn't overweight - and our drinking has diminished a lot since it is easier for both of us to be on the diet. (It won't kill me, but I haven't lost weight on it either, sigh.) Hard to manage the blood sugar when you add alcohol to the diet.
-- I feel so much better since I stopped trying to believe.
"We are entitled to our own opinions. We're not entitled to our own facts"- Al Franken
"If death isn't sweet oblivion, I will be severely disappointed" - Ruth M.
cj wrote:Kapkao
Yeah... but the 7-8 minutes worth of nonstop giggles isn't so bad.
If I drink, it's only for socialization and the buzzing, euphoric release of laughter and being hapless. No other reason to, IMO.
Now... excuse me while I continue the quest to find the mean, aggressive females of my species.
“A meritocratic society is one in which inequalities of wealth and social position solely reflect the unequal distribution of merit or skills amongst human beings, or are based upon factors beyond human control, for example luck or chance. Such a society is socially just because individuals are judged not by their gender, the colour of their skin or their religion, but according to their talents and willingness to work, or on what Martin Luther King called 'the content of their character'. By extension, social equality is unjust because it treats unequal individuals equally.” "Political Ideologies" by Andrew Heywood (2003)