So today I was looking over at Menchi, and I noticed she had a flea. ON NO! Well, as I grabbed the flea to kill the little fucker, a thought occurred to me, "The rest of it's flea-family probably just saw me rip it from her, then deposit the corpse back upon her. They probably think of her as their planet. They probably think 'god' just killed it for _INSERT REASON HERE_." LOL... Now, granted a fleas thought processes certainly can't be as detailed or high as all that, but it really did remind me of the Licecapades episode of South Park. I just started laughing, and thinking about all the religionists of the world. I couldn't help myself... ^_^;

Another thing that I realize: Even the most open-minded of Xians can be very judgmental of those who are without religion. My sister fancies herself as not being so, but she often treats me as if I'm automatically without morals. When I speak of my morals, she's often surprised to find that my morals are often stricter than her own, and quite similar. The only thing we disagree on is the monogamy thing. She seems to respect that one though, surprisingly. I guess because she considers men trouble, and it's not like I'm into having a bunch of men. I think the perfect relationship is one feminine guy, and a couple of girls. ^_^ Still, it really hurts the way my sister leaves me out of things all the time. She does it, I guess because she worries that I'll just go up to random religionists and harass them as they have harassed me in the past. o_O I don't know where she got that crazy idea. I'm not an asshole like they are. I just want to be left alone for the most part. Now, I will speak up when they come bothering me, but so long as they leave me alone, I leave them alone...

Oh, I do disagree with her on something else: CONSTANTLY GOSSIPING ABOUT PEOPLE SHE KNOWS NOTHING ABOUT. She does that all the time with people in the neighborhood. It annoys the fuck out of me, because as a Xian she's not supposed to be "bearing false witness" in the first place! GRR!

My mom and I are growing further and further apart, and it's all because of the religion issue. She's just refusing to back down. She's got it in her head that she just has to "save" me. The more she does that, the more she pisses me off and I just want to put RRS stuff to CD to make her listen to it. The more I want to print out essays to forcibly read to her. The more I want her to feel what she makes me feel!

She's even wanting me off my seizure medicines. She's blaming them for my atheism. I was an atheist BEFORE they put me on depakote or any of the others, BEFORE it was discovered I had epilepsy. I embraced my atheism after admitting to myself that I had no faith in anything (early 90's). I was trying out different religions to please those around me, and only hurt myself in the process. Since embracing my non-belief, and taking responsibility for myself, my life really has improved in a lot of ways. No longer was I being convinced that I was having visions, or hearing "god"/"angels"/"devils"/etc. Nope, I finally fell out with a tonic-clonic seizure in 2003, was diagnosed, and put on meds. All of those hallucinations went away with the introduction of depakote to my diet. YAY! Of course, now my mom is convinced that those medications are only preventing me from hearing "god" and being "saved". Stupid bint...

I'd post more, but I still have housework to do, and it's late. 0.0 oops! **scampers off**